Posts Tagged: God
Restlessness
Part of having a blog of this nature, is being transparent and vulnerable with others. I do not talk about my struggles in this area of my life very often let alone for all the world to see. But I know this is something that God wants me to share with you all.
In the last month, I have been feeling a restlessness about my singleness. Most days I am happy single, love where I am at in life and would not want it any other way. But this restlessness kept coming back off and on this last month. This was more than usual. New Years eve this year it all came to a head for me. I was feeling lonely and just sick of being single(I watched a Hallmark movie which didn’t help my feelings). Tired of doing life alone as a single woman. Instead of continuing to ruminate in it, I decided to have a heart to heart with God that night before I feel asleep. I laid in my bed with my journal and just poured my heart out to God. I wrote about the feelings that I was having for about the last month or so. And just gave it to Him and let Him love on me. Did this change my singleness? No. And yes I am sure I am still going to struggle with this from time to time. But by the end of writing several pages, I felt loved by my Father and not lonely.
Whether this part of my life will ever change, I am okay with this because I know who God says who I am! And He has an amazing journey planned for me. I also know that I would rather be in God’s will and be single than being out of His will and be married or in a relationship. And no circumstance or feelings I am experiencing will change that. This is a beautiful fact. This New Years eve I have learned to embrace my feelings but in that then give it to God rather than ruminate on it. I also relearned no circumstance or feeling is going to change who God says I am.
Words
“Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me.” – The Christian Recorder of March 1862
I remember hearing this saying as a child and I am sure I used it several times myself. But as an adult, I started to think about the meaning and the implication of this saying. Reality is that words can hurt and can be painful. And once said they can not be unsaid.
This week there was a wildfire in Gatlinburg, Tennessee that destroyed many acres of forest, homes and businesses. There was a lot of damage done by this fire and the damage will take a long time to clean up from. While fire is something that can be so beautiful it can be so devastating also. I liken this to our words we say. Words can be used to encourage and build up others or ourselves. But they can also be used to tear down and hurt others. And if words are used to tear down and hurt others, the affects can be there for many years. Sometimes we replay those words ourselves and we still hear them many years later. In many cases healing can take many years. James talks about this very thing.
“A bit in the mouth of a horse controls the whole horse. A small rudder on a huge ship in the hands of a skilled captain sets a course in the face of the strongest winds. A word out of your mouth may seem of no account, but it can accomplish nearly anything—or destroy it! It only takes a spark, remember, to set off a forest fire. A careless or wrongly placed word out of your mouth can do that. By our speech we can ruin the world, turn harmony to chaos, throw mud on a reputation, send the whole world up in smoke and go up in smoke with it, smoke right from the pit of hell. This is scary: You can tame a tiger, but you can’t tame a tongue—it’s never been done. The tongue runs wild, a wanton killer. With our tongues we bless God our Father; with the same tongues we curse the very men and women he made in his image. Curses and blessings out of the same mouth!” – James 3:3-10
When speaking to others, we should be speak with purpose. This purpose would be to speak in love to others and to point others to our Father.
Hope
A family that is close to my heart lost someone this week. This man died doing what he loved. He loved the Lord and he shared this with others he met. This challenged me to think am I doing what I was created for and what in my life stands in the way of my relationship with my Creator.
In college, it became clear to me what my passion in my life is and what drives me to get up in the morning. My passion is to help people see the light at the end of their tunnel or to be the lantern in the tunnel until they reach the next lantern. This light I am referring to is hope. Hope will get you through a lot. Hope is what you turn to when life is messy and you are not sure what to do next.
We can count on Lord God to provide the best hope for us because He is sovereign and sees the whole picture. This does not mean that life will always be smooth sailing and we wouldn’t any trials along the way. Because we will and when we do if you have a relationship with your Creator – Lord God then we do not have to do life alone. Doing life alone is hard and a life filled a void that only your Creator can fill. And life is hard sometimes even when you are doing life with your Creator. But you don’t need to do life alone and He provides hope in His promises in the toughest moments.
Are you doing what you love? Are you in the purpose you have been created for by our Creator? And what hope can you offer to others in your life?
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